Black Love on Fire

This is a love poem

dead ngr music

A poem about Hip Hop

Bleed

Bleed 

We Bad
Ruffle feathers like bad weather
We young stormclouds
Dark on the horizon
Bad news
Niggas want to rumble real bad
Our blood be boiling
Be wanting to
Lock hands
Put it on somebody
We really want to fuck some stuff up
But what is that gon’ do?
How we gon’ handle this?
Blood gon’ be shed
Somebody going to jail
And Somebody else going to the hospital
Stab wounds, gunshots, take a long time to heal
But not as long as our spirits will take
Spirits will long remember
What these feet and fists feel like
Balled up made hard for contact against soft flesh
We will long remember what it feels like to have stomach folded over feet
Head buzzing
Blood in our mouths
Ears and face hot
So damn hot
Our spirits will not forget
This violence, this basic betrayal
Of what is best about us
Why we forgot how to come back from the place
Where our words don’t work
So we ride back to the words on one anothers’ pain
And so it goes:
“Bleed nigga bleed! Bleed nigga, nigga bleed! Nigga Bleed till you and I die. Nigga bleed till we die. Nigga bleed”
Nigga, I want you to bleed for me,
Your blood sacrifice is going to be my penance,
You on the cross me for me and everybody like me.
I need to forget so I am going to make you bleed
I am going to take it out on your flesh
Until I can’t shoot no more
Until I can’t beat you no more
Until you can’t breathe no more

I Am Because We Are

I Am Because We Are

Beautiful

Amazing

Glorious

Together

In Love

I Am Because We Are

not ever alone

never again

I was created for you

and you for me

We have become One

Wherever you go

There I am also

And this is not the beginning

or the end of anything

just a continuation

of what has always been

This will always be

We have been preparing for this

our whole lives

I Am Because We Are

devoted, deserving, amazing, beautiful

together and in love

I Am Because We Are

All that I am is committed to you

We are on the Golden Path

living our purpose in Divine Light

I Am Because We Are

in The Ideal State

completely surrounded by Love

I Am Because We Are

completely unafraid

to face anything

so long as it is together

that we face it

And it is this love,

this beautiful perfect Love

that has carried us

from the High Places

of our far off Homeland

Across the oceans into the cotton fields and cities of this new land

and will carry us hand in hand

to our Golden Future

I Am Because We Are

Beautiful

Amazing

Precious

Complete

Together

In Love

#NaPoWriMo "Divine Formulation"

If women=time 
and 
time=$$
and 
$$ is the root of all evil....
but 
i know
God=Love
and 
Love=Mama
then
Mama=God

#NaPoWriMo "Poem for Isabelle"

as beautiful as this love could be
as strong as we feel
as wonderful as these words are
they will not make it okay
will not draw you back to me
can’t convince you not to run back into
that firestorm

You will run toward it
because you are afraid of the not knowing
not knowing is the scariest part
more scarier
than anything
“oh I know you better than anybody”
and i knew you were telling me the fucking truth
and i can’t make you love me

#NaPoWriMo button 17/30

button

sis real tough
got her finger on that relationship “mute” button heavy
like quick
and she got a thing in her nightstand that keep her occupied most nights
and she keep it on her button
tough

but aint nothing better than arms and legs twined up
looking for the remote
the button to turn off the television
so i can kiss that button
on your belly
so you can kiss mine
lets tune in

#NaPoWriMo goons

goons

goon ass niggas

turn up

but is still just mostly scared little brown boys

grown muscles

learned how to knuckle up early

and scare square dudes

know where to stick that burner

in just the right places

some learn how to tuck packs of rocks

under nut sacks

clinch bags in crack of ass

these niggas used to be my youngbloods

young fireflies

my Young Lions

Shiny

Now they

young arsonists burning

Hunters, preying on daughters and sisters

who miss and wish for Daddy

but he ain’t coming

#NaPoWriMo Wake up

Wake Up

hey bright baby

you fresh to def

black beautiful and magnificent

shiny star

night bright

wake up time

right?

hey lady

wake up time she said

Lion King that you are

Big Fish that you are
Twin Star that I am

Sunrise

and some brightness

and something sweet

because i’ve been in the night

but today is today

#NaPoWriMo Prayers for gold and other treasures kept sacred

prayers for gold and other treasures kept sacred

Lord,

I pray that these little bits of gold, these slivers and chips of jewels I share with these babies are kept and stored somewhere safe.

Babies, store and hoard what I give you

so that

One Day

When

Their Enemies/Family/Friends

try to trick and trade them

for Wine/Weed/Likker/Powder and Pills

my babies can Resist.

I pray
Dear Sweet Lord the Holy Blood of Jesus the Christ

That you array all your Mighty Angels around them

so they can say something like

"nah bruh. See I got treasure stored up inside me, my dude."

"That weak game you got aint nothing but sweet lies, poison and bullshit"

"Miss me with that"

Amen

#NaPoWriMo My last apology

if beauty was wealth 

then you'd be rich

for a minute

until the covers fell off

until your hair thinned

until the costume wears out

because it's a gorgeous costume

it's a husk you despise

it is a mask you were given and don't want

but baby I see you

your eyes full of light

there are no innocent tongues here

the mask

it makes them want to get close

even though you can't hardly bear it

to touch

they want

to take care of 

to hold up

to admire 

and look at

but not to see

not to know

not to ask

or challenge

or change

but baby I see you

there are no pure hearts here

The ones who love you are the ones who want to hold you up

and me, like all the rest of your enemies, I dropped you. 

my baby fell, and I failed to run and catch her. 

Where were you Baby? Where were you when I needed you?

"uh..somehere else."

    #fuck

"I'm sorry I wasn't there when you needed me" 

"I needed you"

      "Im sorry"
"I needed you"

      "I'm sorry"

and on and on and on

#dumbassfailmantradontnoblackwomanwanttohearfromherman

fail one million times

#fuck

no one is hearing anything

if smart equalled money I'd be balling

i'm the smartest person I know

i make equations in the starlight

i can describe eternity

i see the patterns written in mist and whispers

i know it all

I have all the answers and I listen to no one

but myself. maybe God. certainly not you.

i'm dumbandlonelyandstupid and common sense evades me

i don't see all that I should

even when it's right in front of me

even when it spits in my eye

I don't see

but baby I see you

and I apologize

i begged and cried and pleaded

for the last time

there are no clear eyes here.

that husk is a poor reflection

i remember the nights we laughed and sang and danced and cooked and ate and watched scary movies. 

and the fights 

our life was a honeymoon

for me, that is

and I ache

not just because we broke loves back

but because baby we invited the destroyer to the party

and fed him and loved him

i mourn because 

it will be another lifetime

before I am that close to you again

and you made this one so sweet.

you were my sweet honey/my love, my love.

my butterfly

my hummingbird

my  Queen

maybe it has always been that way

we have certainly loved before, perhaps we will again

but not in this time

noone here is clean

but baby I see you

i have no good way to end this poem. this is my last apology.

#NaPoWriMo A Poem 'bout Jesus

A Poem 'bout Jesus

Unconditional love and being perfect 

will have you fucked up out here

Cause I love you unconditionally 

I have never bled this deep

never hit this hard

ugh

in my gut

over the top of my head

hit

knocked down

in the street

blood in my eyes

pushed down

choked of breath

cold blooded

stabbed in my side

nailed down and hoisted up

bullet holes

don’t burn like this

again and again

You kill me

because I love you

Just want to love you

You

burn me from my inside

my heart stops

and I die

but i’ll be back and you still won’t love me.

#NaPoWriMo if you knew me

if you knew me

if you knew me

then you could see me torn down

and rebuilding

you could see my feet planted

and jaw squared

and know I ain’t taking this

sitting down

you would see me rise.

#NaPoWriMo dead nig music

dead nig music

we shout these nigger

chants

like they black power anthems

like

i use my bitch like an atm card

like bitches aint shit but hoes and tricks

in love with the coco

like nigga you aint on my level

we killin ourselves

because our words are magic

have weight

we run this motherfucker

but we don’t know it

can’t see it

nigger music is full of death

and dead niggers

and bitches

and killers of niggers and black bitches

we commit to death

celebrate and toast to it

the darkness

but really we full of light

and mirth

the blues

gospel

psalms

..searching for Black Jesus

#NaPoWriMo beat me 11/30

beat me

you beat me

like hot steel

raw material. ore

refined. pounded into shape

sharp.shift

change I can

i am.

have to

change

#NaPoWriMo Springtime 13/30

Springtime

There are many, tiny pieces of your story. I find them scattered, written on fragments of speech, the way you time you take to talk.

 I pick up these small pieces, palm to pocket, and put them together in the quiet times we string together.

The sugar in your sweet smile, the smell of you on my hands, I sift you through my fingers....
I want to cast the stars around you and watch as the clouds gather at your feet.
I want to lay around and hold you the way the rivers wind themselves through the mountains.
You are my springtime...this is the season of renewal.

Love Language

I did not know that there was anyone else who spoke this language, had this sweet way of painting with words and images. You are a gift, a blessing to me.

I adore you.

You have a deep, deep sweetness waiting to spill out of you.
It rises in you like hot sap.

Enough of that

The quantum mechanics of spirit allow us to shadow one another to occupy the same

spaces at the same time, no matter how far apart my body is from yours my spirit is forever next to yours. I must be close to you always or I will be lost.
I will be next to you even when I am dust. Or else I will be lost.

An answer to my most secret and fervent prayers you are.
I wish I could consecrate the ground you walk on...but instead I pray

Birth

She said "From Struggle We Birth Miracles"
I laughed and said "Well then call me Jesus. God of Unconditional Love."
I named it and the Light Shone upon the Deep.
I called you Love, watched you turn into the Moon start spinning and stirring the Oceans.

The water of You is in my body.
Gave Life and Birth and Blood/First Breath all came from you.
My every heartbeat echoes You.
I Am Because We Are.

I knew you in the Beginning before Naming, We were there together.
I knew you.

Now we are many, shining like the stars.

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It was amazing
...I danced for 1,000 years in the dark starlight of her love.
And wandered lost
For 8,000 more
for want of
her long fingered touch
her thorough kisses
Ne'er to be forgotten
her burning and luxurious gaze.
I hear her call
It is the same as my own
heart

I reach for her
to find
only flame and blade.
Only fire and steel.
...I have only these roses and cups of sweet wine
Only these silly ass poems

So I run
I retreat
I turn away
I go
And yet I love still

Black Love on Fire

Black love, on fire
Burns brightest
And then sputters
fails. Needs constant jumpstarts.

Needs nursing sometimes beyond reason.

Swaddling sometimes baby steps...

And then falling

Get back up. Don't quit ever.

Not so many weekend getaways we had
Very few rose petals
But we say yes to lots of bacon and grits

To bedtime bowls and cheerios

We lost that
Now just weary and tired of
Too many lies and secrets and
Non prioritization

Too much rage and fear
Not enough time for redemption
Time and time again
Violation
Foul
No and no and no
Too many negatives